Wednesday, January 30, 2008,7:56 am
ohkay , havent blogged since the release of o'level results yea ?
hahaha . really have to thank God .
i mean , REAAALLY thank God .
i managed to do better than what i expected .
or rather . than i expected to expect .
the night before, was kinda reluctant to go for the prayer meeting
( sorry marcus :x )
but went anyway cos i felt , yeah i should go and give support and all .
waited for the bus SUPER DUPER long .
so i was kinda late .
what more , the church gate was locked .
so i had to climb out onto the railing and through the bushes .
through those eff-ing torns .
which explains my emo leg now . hahah .
they thought i was emo over my results i cut myself . HAHAHA .
only daniel saw me climbing through :x
when i went in .
the room was dark .
they wanted us to feeel serene , comfortable .
not afraid to voice out .
and i must admit , it did help .
all of us were calm im prayer .
people shared . we had some laughs .
the reason why i didnt want to go .
because i wasnt really that anxious .
i mean , it was either the seriousness of the news hadnt sunk in yet .
or , i really had left it all in God's hands .
i did learn something though .
having left it , or rather thrown it up to God's hands , sometimes isnt all there is .
you pray for peace of mind . and more importantly , you have to pass the peace and assurance to others .
that was what i learnt .
and i cant believe it slipped my mind .
we all took the examinations together , and we should end it together (:
i was also shocked when jon shared about his friend , and when tamlyn shared about laura .
and i thought my friends too .
in cck . in hillgrove . in church . in MI .
it never really struck me the mass of people involved in this ,
everyone waiting just like me .
i suddenly felt so selfish :x
so i prayed , and i cried .
even people lik avriel and jerome joined us .
even when they werent taking o's .
to give their support .
and i , who WAS taking my result .
was reluctant .
omg . what a freak am i :x
anyways , some of us walked to boonkeng for supper after that .
wait wait .
DO I LOOK LIKE AN AHLIAN TO YOU ?
omg . no caaaan .
im like a super eff-ing full-blooded nerd :DD
i think they're blind . hahaha .
so misunderstood )):
anyways . prata prata prata .
it was quite nice to spend time with them again .
growing up with them and all .
and we're now going through life's challenges together .
hahaha .
its funny though .
how people growing up together can turn up so different .
with every decision our paths split even further . hahha .
and yet , God joins us all :D
yeah . thanks to the prayer meeting .
i had a good sleeep that night :D
24th jan . THE DAY :D
met the girlfriends in the morning .
and yeah . it was starting to sink in .
but the whole day felt like a dream .
a distant alien dream .
chorchuan came in and showed us the preview .
the overall performance of the school .
and i prayed .
i prayed hard that we were going to be in the percentage that passed , that got distinction .
i could see , sheela azureen shalini they all .
were more panicked than i was .
we all discussed which cca we wanted to go to .
looked back at all the times we studied .
all the times we stressed.
of course we wanted it all to be worth .
walking into school .
we saw how everything , everyone had changed .
certain people come and gone .
i cant really remember everything that was happening .
but i know we all tried our best to just have fun .
at the hall .
yeah . it was then , things started to appear more real .
we could sense the tension surrounding :x
then my mind began wander .
i began to panic .
seriously , i even thought to myself the prospects of ite .
i imagined myself going to simei , taking up beauty course .
opening a salon in the future .
i even started to imagine doing my friends' hair .
HAHHA . it all seems to paranoid now luh :x
my filza gave me a smile .
more of a frantic nod-smile.
but i didnt believe her .
what if her smile meant my frown .
or the opposite . lols .
i started to think more deeply into ite :x
THEN . they announced the top gurl .
it was some gurl named amy something yi wen .
then , i saw my name there . hahaha .
then i figured , come out once , sure wont come out again . so sure wont do well .
i thought it was a message to my pride .
so , i almost started to cry when suddenly azureen and sheela started whacking me .
saying my name on the screen .
i thought they were joking with me . so i started to cry more :x
then i looked up and . hahahhaa .
totally in shock mode o.o
managed to get 6 distinctions :DD
R4 7 and R5 9 .
*dances .
it was too good to be true .
God really does slot little miracles into our lives eh ?
especially when you least expect it .
had to stand on stage with shoban they all to take photo with ms tan .
i couldnt believe it .
i never imagined i could ever , ever even THINK of doing well like them .
yeah , anyways . that was how it was luh .
shock-mode the whole day .
and im so happy to say that all my girlfriends did well too (:
also to marcus and chorchuan :D who got five distinctions ! *dances .
i guess our class was like the underdog .
nobody really expected us to do well .
cos our class was still playful right into september .
but we proved them wrong ! :DD
congrats to everyone who did well to their expectations .
and for those who wer disappointed . dont fret ?
i believe God has a plan for everyone .
and maybe your light was meant to shine elsewhere .
in all the dark little corners . so think openly (:
and count your blessings (:
i still remember before o'levels .
i always had this vision that i would die before my o's
dont know . like , i could always imagine myself in the future .
but when i thought of o's , it always seemed so clouded .
like there WAS no future :x
well , thank God that wasnt true (:
and when cherie and i were in lower sec .
all we did was slack and play basketball .
we thought into the future .
and couldnt imagine ourselves taking o'levels .
well , not in hillgrove . and we couldnt imagine life leaving the basketball court .
well , funny how things turn out eh ? glad we're still laopos now :DD
anyways , i've spent the past days thinking hard ,
more like stress-ing over which school to choose .
i was so ready to take on poly .
but then mum said i had to go jc .
and my mindset had to turn 360 and choose from scratch all over again .
in the end i chose nanyang as my first choice .
i remember the late nights frantically searching and asking everyone how to get there the fastest .
i had never wanted to prove mum and qiang wrong all my life :x
i remember when the only jc i thought was st andrew's .
because of the beautiful bridge.
the anglican environment .
the church ever so near .
but now that i think of it .
its academic standard has been dropping .
and everyone has been telling of the competitive environment .
so i these are my choices :D
[1] nanyang jc
[2] anderson jc
[3] st andrew's jc
[4] catholic jc
[5] jurong jc
[6] pioneer jc
[7] innova jc
hahaha . the last few were crap luh :x
mum ask me to put de . hahaha .
anyways .
praying hard that me sheela junwei and azureeen will get into nanyang :x
i cant imagine life without my girlfriends :x
and junwei has been a real good friend to me in MI (:
our very own national geographic channel ! :x smart ass .
please please please dont take my friends from my side :x
this post super long le :x
there are many people i want to thank for helping me through my o's .
but but but .
i'll do it in the next post .
gotta hurry bathe to meet my laogong shuni :x
and and .
though she wont be here to read it .
huiping has given birth le .
on results day .
really happy for her , she seems happy .
her baby is really really cute .
and the gift of life is really the greatest gift .